Yeahhhhh… so… uhhhh…

I had big plans for the month of December.

Opening The Lab.

Back to writing the newsletter.

Videos galore.

And then…

The bottom fell out.

Again.

We lost my amazing uncle.

My mom went back into the hospital.

I got sick.

And it all was just… a lot.

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And it called me inward.

Into a place of pause and serious distillation.

Around the magic, yes.

But also around my devotion TO and expression OF the magic.

Even more aptly:

My RELATIONSHIP to the devotion and expression.

Because when it’s all going smoothly, when you’re dropped in and turned on and everything you touch feels like flow…

That’s a completely different relationship energetic than when you’re so deeply buried you don’t remember how to breathe, let alone create.

And grief is like that sometimes.

Death and love and pleasure and art and life.

Are like that sometimes.

Yet, so often when we know we're being called into the next evolution of soul, we push.

We try to make it happen no matter what.

We try to discipline ourselves into devotion.

Which, if you've tried that little bit of insanity, you already know:

It doesn't work.

Not for long, anyway.

Not when shit has already hit the fan and your so-called habits feel like your soul is dying on the vine.

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And so how do we come back to devotion, when the sky has fallen on our heads?

And how do we stay ready, when we can't even remember what we were trying to get ready for?

We shift.

Down.

Into the muck.

Into the mire.

Into the very Pit of Despair we've been trying oh-so-unceremoniously to avoid with everything we have.

We free fall so deeply into the void that our name no longer matters.

That the matter no longer matters.

And we remember how to breathe.

We remember who we were before there was anything to be.

And we remember ourselves home.

Unto That Which Is Unchanging.

Unto The Most High being made manifest as us in every given moment.

We shift.

Down.

Until down becomes center.

And we find ourselves there once more.

Yeah.

I'll meet you there.

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As always...

Here's to your untaming,

N

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P.S.:

Something erotic this way comes...

But, it will only be available to members of my brand new membership, Mystic Eros: The Lab.

Since I needed a downshift and I've barely even shared about The Lab, we'll be enrolling Founding Members for another few weeks.

And... I've been feeling a super high level bonus for all Founding Members.

I'll share soon.

But, if you already know you're one of us, and are ready to drop in with the madness post haste...

​Join us here.​

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P.P.S.:

Happy New Year's Eve, my Loves.

I'll see you on the other side. 🪶🌀🤎